Ocean of Thoughts

I wish I could forget you. That smile of yours and the way you looked at me with innocent adoration, making be believe that you’re a pure and transparent when in reality you’re just part of what I imagined you to be. But it’s my fault really, I ignored the signs, the red flags, the shady behavior you’ve laid out yourself right in front of me. I thought WE could fix it, I thought you wanted to go down that path with me, but actually it was all only in my head.

To you I’m just a passing moment. A cute little object observed from a distance, a pretty new face to brighten up your boring routine. After all, from a distance, everything looks pretty. And just when we got just a little bit closer; I started to see it. That behavior of yours that you try to contrast with your words. And I know then that you’re not as candid as you claim to be. You made me feel as though I stand out and I thought you were different. But the people you kept close by had always had me wonder why you acted the way you did.